Keane dives into his harrowing experience of the Rwandan genocide, we see that he still thinks about the genocide and the readers are left feeling bad for Keane as we can see how badly he was affected. "What has not gone, what may never go, is a deep feeling of sorrow or all the poor ruined humanity I encountered in those months of spring last year." Keane uses parenthesis to highlight his belief that has been fundamentally changed by his experiences, and that the emotional impact of what he witnessed is likely to remain with him for the rest of his life. The repeated negatives 'not...never' emphasise the permanence of his trauma. The metaphor 'poor ruined humanity' conjures images of destruction too which contrasts with the season of spring which normally represents new beginnings, life and growth. Keane is ultimately reflecting on the permanent sense of pity he carries with him. "To this day I am at loss to describe what it was really like. That smell. On your clothes, on your skin." Keane once again highlights is ability to adequately express the reality of what he saw, drawing our attention instead to his strong sensory memory of the experience. Just like in the first paragraph this reference to 'smell' demonstrates that the events witnessed by Keane were too awful to be understood, but too shocking to be forgotten. Anaphora is used to suggest the idea of the smell being everywhere and inescapable, even more than year after the experience itself. "I can remember attending a mass funeral where the families of the dead were almost knocked over by jostling cameramen and photographers. One part of me was sickened by the spectacle, the other busy ensuring that my own cameramen were able to keep standing and focus on the grieving relatives." Here Keane reveals the disgusting and very disrespectful way the media behave at a funeral for the victims. He uses words like "jostling" to show how invasive and almost violent the media are which is shocking and disturbing for the readers. He shows his disapproval through the use of the word "sickened". Keane is repulsed by the actions of these people. Yet ironically, he admits that he too was more concerned about getting a good shot than the grieving family. This tells us that the media are extremely selfish and do not care who they upset or insult. Their main priority is to be the media outlet with the best shot. Keane is disgusted with the whole industry including himself. This is particularly moving as he is being so honest about himself and his actions.