4. superboy to catch me i'm falling

dan: they say it’s like dating, you have to keep going until you find the right match

they have depression chat rooms

dan: three different women at work gave me his name

three women at work know i’m nuts

dr. madden: (rockstar singing) yeah

what did you just say

dr. madden: (rockstar singing) let’s get it on now baby

excuse me what

dr. madden: are you nervous diana

i am a little a bit out of breath tingly actually now you go

dr. madden: (rockstar singing) where’d you go and who’d you see yeah

um my history well i was diagnosed bipolar um wow sixteen years ago but it turned out bipolar didn’t really cover it

dr. madden: it’s possible bipolar has more in common with schizophrenia than depression

when i was young my mother called me high spirited she would know she was so high spirited they banned her from the pta

dr. madden: sometimes there’s a predisposition to illness but actual onset is only triggered by some traumatic event

i never know what to say when i have to go over all this it starts to sound like some story i tell that’s about some other person entirely

dr. madden: were you happy when you got married?

i thought i was

dr. madden: there’s a difference between being happy and just thinking you’re happy

most people who think they’re happy just haven’t thought about it enough most people who think they’re happy are actually just stupid

dr. madden: i see. were you happy when your son was born?

my son

dr. madden: tell me about him

about my son

dr. madden: (singing) walk with me walk with me

okay walking

dr. madden: (singing) go all the way down down a long flight of stairs

stairs

dr. madden: (singing) go step by step into the darkness down there

should we turn on a light you know with the stairs

dr. madden: can you hear me diana

yes

dr. madden: are you nervous

no

dan: di you come home from these sessions in tears. is this helping or? di? di?

we were both undergrads architecture the baby wasn’t planned neither was the marriage i had always expected to be too busy but when the baby came it all seemed to make sense until until

natalie: will they

we had natalie to and i know she knows i couldn’t hold her in the hospital

natalie: where the hell are they

i couldn’t let myself hold her

natalie: yes

yes

gabe: mom

yes i would