Dear Evan Hansen

cynthia

Heidi finished anybody have a map first chorus

It’s you’re senior year connor you are not missing the first day

Connor- i already said i’d go tomorrow im trying to find a compromise here

are you going to get involved here or are you too busy on your email larry

zoe- are you kidding

besides he is not high. i do not want you going to school high connor we have talked about this

zoe- fuck you

i don’t need you picking at your brother right now that is not constructive

zoe- are you kidding

besides he is not high. i do not want you going to school high connor we have talked about this

larry- why don’t you go ahead honey and

i’m going as fast as i can

larry- that’s not what i said is it

this is… connor… he wanted you to have this

larry- you think this is you think that connor wrote this to me

these are the words he wanted to share with you

larry- his last words

this is what he wanted you to have

larry- … “i wish that everything was different. I wish that i were a a part of something. i wish that what i said mattered to/ anyone”

please stop it larry

evan- but that’s that’s isn’t… i’m

sorry. Connor um connor didn’t write this

what does that mean

evan- connor didn’t he didn’t write this

what dose he mean

evan- no i just he didn’t

it’s right here

evan- i’m sorry but i should probably just can i please go now

if this isn’t, if connor didn’t write this/ then…

evan- i should go now

but did he say anything to you? / did you see anything- ?

larry- cynthia honey this is not the time

this is all we have. this is the only thing we have left

evan- you should just, you should take it. please

larry look. his cast. his best and most dearest friend

larry- would anyone else like some more chicken

i think you’re the only one with an appetite, larry

larry- the harrises brought it over

did connor tell you about the harrises, we used to go skiing together, our families

evan- well right, that what i mean connor loved talking about how much he hated skiing

so you guys, you… you hung out a lot?

evan- just so that no one else could, it was more private, i guess, that way

he knew you read his emails

zoe- the weird this is, the only time i ever saw you and my brother together was when he shoved you at school last week

he shoved you?

evan- he didn't really want people to know we were friends i guess he was embarrassed a little

why would he be embarrassed?

evan- loser i was going to say actually but nerd works too

that wasn’t very nice

zoe- well connor wasn't very nice so that makes sense

connor was… he was a complicated person

zoe- don’t pretend like you don’t agree with me

cynthia- you refuse to remember any of the good/ you refuse to see anything positive

zoe- because there were no good things. what were the good things

i don't want to have this conversation in front of our guest

zoe- what were the good thing mom. / tell me

there were good things

evan- never mind. i shouldn't have, i’m sorry, never mind

no evan. you were saying something

evan- it dosent matter. Really

we want to hear what you have to say. please

evan- … anyway. it’s, i knew it was stupid i don’t know why i even brought it/ up

he took you to the orchard

evan- yes. he did

when?

evan- exactly, which is why we were so bummed when we get there because it was completely it's totally closed down now

we used to go to the orchard all the time. we’d do picnics out there. remember that zoe?

zoe- yeah i do

you and connor had that little toy plane you would fly. until you flew it into the creek

larry- there was an emergency landing

i can't believe he took you there. i beg that was fun. i bet you two, i bet you had fun

evan- END OF MAY OR EARLY JUNE THIS PICTURE PERFECT AFTERNOON WE SHARE

what was the name of that ice cream place out there we loved?

larry- à la mode

That was it. à la mode. and they had that homemade hot fudge

evan- GRAB A SCOOP AT À LA MODE AND THE WERE THERE

we’d sit in that meadow with all the sycamores and you and your brother would look for four leaf clovers

larry- i’d completely forgotten about that place

well, i guess connor didn’t. did he?

evan- end of for forever

thank you evan. thank you thank you thank you thank you

evan- these were just some of the emails i found

it's difficult to read these it dosent sound like connor

evan- i’m sorry i um maybe i shoukdn’t have

no no i just gosh i din’t remeber the last time i heard him laugh but you two, you would?

evan/ no yeah we would we laughed all the time

there are more of these? more emails?

evan- more? yeah there are a lot more

we would love to see them. we would love to see everything. wouldn’t we?

zoe- why are you here

oh zoe. wait until you see what evan brought us. emails from your brother

zoe- terrific all of a sudden everyone wants to be my friend i’m the dead kids sister didn’t you know

i'm sure they mean well

evan- i should probably go

you’re not saying for dinner ?

evan- oh well just i hadn’t planned on it

then wr’ll do another night. i can cook something for you

evan/ you don’t have to

it would be my pleasure we would love to have you

evan- oh thanks

so. how was band today? i bet they’re happy to have you back huh?

zoe- you really don’t have to do this okay?

do what?

zoe- just because connor isn't here trying to punch through my door, screaming at the top of his lungs that he's going to kill me for no reason that doesn't mean that all of a sudden where the fucking Brady Bunch

we are all grieving in our own way. i know how much you miss your brother. we all do. you can read these when you’re ready

larry- i’m going to bed

come sit with me

larry- cynthia…

you can't stand to be in his room for five minutes can you

larry- i'm exhausted

you know larry at some point you’re going to have to / start

larry- not tonight please

just read this

evan- oh no i just um… i wasn’t

dinners ready, guys. guys?

evan- we’re calling it the connor project

the connor project

alana- and for the kickoff event and all school memorial assembly next week students teachers whoever wants to they can get up and talk about connor talk about his legacy

i don’t know what to say

jared- no sweat

oh evan… this is just, this is wonderful

alana jared and evan sing in circle disappear

for tomorrow for the assembly

evan- oh

when connor started seventh grade all my girlfriends said, here comes bar mitzvah season. he’s going to have a different party every saturday. i took him to a suit, some shirts, a tie.

he didn’t get invited to a single one.

i thought you could wear this for your speech

evan- my what?

well alana said that anyone who wanted to would have the chance to say something tomorrow. i think we all assumed that you would be the first to sign up

evan- i don’t um the thing is just i don’t really do very well with um with public speaking im not very good at it you wouldn’t want me to trust me

of course i would want you to. i’m sure the whole school wants to hear from you. i know larry and i do. and zoe… think about it

jared- four thousand / five hundred and eighty-two

sixteen thousand two hundred and thirty nine

evan- i don’t understand. what happened?

you did

start of scene six- on couch with larry and heidi

evan tells us you're studying to be a lawyer

heidi- paralegal

you’re kidding

larry- i had no idea

aren't you / -they’re always looking for new paralegals

larry- well why dom’t i give you my card at least and when you graduate / you should absolutely

that is a great idea. kismet

heidi- oh no you don’t have to do that

it’s kismet

heidi- red would be great

it's from a vineyard outside of portland- completely one hundred percent sustainable, the entire production process. they had a whole feature on them in the new york times. incredible.

heidi- i’m so glad that you called this morning. i was i’ve been agonizing over whether i should if it was appropriate for me to reach out

oh heidi. we have, too. Evan says you’re so busy i don’t know if i should bother you

heidi- i’m not that busy

well i asked evan if you minding him spending so much time here and he said it wasn’t a problem because of your schedule. with classes and work…

larry- even been a real… he’s been a great source of comfort for us these last few days

well, he and connor, they were close

larry- we were the same

boys love to keep secrets

heidi- evan didn’t tell me anything

secret handshakes, secret tree houses…

zoe- sorry we’re late. band went long again

we’re just in here having a glass of wine, getting to know each other

heidi- i didn’t realize that evan was, that you were joining us too

i'm sorry i didn’t think to tell you

heidi- well this seemed for important so j’m playing hooky

we were just talking about how sneaky you and connor were. top secret

evan- something smells good

chicken milanese…

evan- i don’t know

oh but evan you call and tell your mother when your staying the night, right?

heidi- his teach last year for english said he wrote one of the best papers she’d ever read about sulu

how about that

larry- i guess now is as good a time as any. cynthia, do you want to…?

well. zoe happened to mention to mention to us the other day that evan was having some difficulty in terms of… the financial burdens of college. and larry and i started thinking about it. and we were very fortunate to have been able to set aside some money for our son.

i’m ok. I’m ok.

i called you this morning to invite you to come join us for dinner tonight heidi because… well first of all because we wanted to thank you for allowing your son to have come into our lives. he was a dear dear friend to our connor. and we have come to just love him to pieces. and with your blessing we would like to give evan the money we put away for our son so that he can use it to fulfill his dreams, just like evan helped connor….

fulfill his.

larry- it would be such a gift to us if we could do this for evan

it would be a tremendous gift, heidi.

heidi- well thank you so much but we're going to be fine. i don't have a lot of money but i do have some

oh we didn’t mean / at all

heidi- well but as his mother i need to set an example for him that you can't expect things from strangers

we’re not strangers

heidi- of course not thank you for the wine it was delicious

you’re not saying for dinner?

heidi- i think i’d better do to work after all

oh no

start of scene nine looking at computer with fam

where did they get connor note

evan- i tried to call alana but she’s / not answering

some of these are adults. do you see their pictures? these are adults

zoe- it’s blocked who cares

what did they say to you?

zoe- it dosen’t matter dad

i'm calling the police that’s it

larry- right now maybe the best thing to do is just wait and see if this blows over

that's always your solution , isn’t it? do nothing.

zoe- can you guys just stop

wait and see. let’s wait and see right larry?

larry- what are the police going to do it’s the internet. they’re go in to arrest the internet

i had to beg you, every step / of the way

evan- i really think they're going to stop

i had to plead with you. for therapy, rehab

larry- you went lurching form one miracle cure to the next

miracle cure / really. is that what you call it

evan- maybe i should try calling alana again

and what was your alternative? other then picking apart everything i did

zoe- no you wanted to punish him

listen to your daughter larry