THINGS I DON'T WANT TO DO

Problem I identified on November 15, 2026

What is missing is my inability to do things that which I know that I must do but won't do. Things like exercising, studying, showering, cleaning up, meeting with friends, attending events. I most feel this when I'm lying in bed scrolling on reels or playing MLBB for the whole day instead of doing the things that I know will bring me closer to my goals such as studying, reflecting and doing flashcards, working out, etc., I think it has something to do with my priorities in my life and also my environment. My environment is conducive to sleep, playing games, and scrolling in reels because everyone in the household seems to find joy in it. I remember for like a month, I was doing stuff that I didn't like to do like go for runs, study 2 hours, reading bible, hanging out with friends, cooking everyday. It felt amazing but there still was something amazing. That's sort of why I came up with this reflection thingy. Thoughts that cause me to make the wrong decisions are: “I'll do it later.” “I'll figure it out later with flashcards” “Oh I'll just make up for it by doing a productive task afterwards.”

Solution I identified on November 15, 2026?

This problem usually occurs in the house when it's really easy to lie down, eat junk food, and scroll reels and the day is over in just a snap of a finger or the blink of an eye. This problem has long existed since I've been in Manila. It's extremely easy to just lie down and just scroll on my phone or watch YouTube videos while eating shitty food. Or buying junk food and watching Young Sheldon. One specific example is yesterday. All I did yesterday was play MLBB, buy shitty food (McDonald's), scroll reels. No reflection, no exercise, and no studying. Not even reading a book. I only posted perfumes but didn't do shit else. Possible causes are my environment. Friends often pressure me to do shit that doesn't align with my goals. One thing could also just be the habits that I've built over time. When something becomes automatic, it becomes a habit and habits can destroy you or make you. Short term consequence is I may end up having fun but long-term it'll end up ruining my life. Aspects of the problem within my control is the action itself. I have complete control over what I choose to and what I choose to not do. People have suggested doing the 5-second rule when you feel resistance or just convincing yourself to do it for only 5 minutes because the starting hurdle is the hardest part.

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