Dear Evan Hansen Heidi Lines

Evan: They were just very warm as well

So you just decided to not eat tonight?

Evan: No, I just wasn’t hungry

You’re a senior in high school Evan. You need to be able to order dinner for yourself if I’m at work. You can do it all online now. You don’t have to talk with anyone on the phone. I know you don’t like the phone.

Evan: You have to stand there while its silent and they’re counting the change and…

This is what you’re supposed to be working on, Evan. With Dr. Sherman? Talking to people. Engaging with people. Not running away from people.

Evan: You’re right. I’m going to be a lot better.

No, I know. I know you are. And that’s why I made an appointment with Dr. Sherman for this afternoon. I’ll pick you up right after school.

Evan: I already have an appointment next week.

And I thought maybe you could use something a little sooner. Have you been writing those letters he wants you to do? (Anybody Have a Map starts) The letters to yourself? The pep talks? “Dear Evan Hansen, this is going to be a good day and here’s why.” Have you been doing those?

Evan: I started writing one. I’ll finish it at school.

Those letters are important, honey. They’re going to help you build your confidence. Seize the day.

Evan: I guess.

I don’t want another year of you sitting at home on your computer every Friday night telling me you have no friends.

Evan: Neither do I.

(Singing Anybody Have a Map starts) Hey, I know: you could go around today and ask the other kids to sign your cast, how about that? That would be the perfect icebreaker.

Evan: Perfect.

I’m proud of you already.

(After waving through a window)

Sh!t, honey. I know I was supposed to pick you up from your appointment. I’m stuck at work. Erica called in with the flu and I’m the only nurse’s aide on today, so I volunteered to pick up her shift.

Evan: Its fine.

It’s just, they announced more budget cuts this morning, so anything I can do to show that I’m, you know, a team player.

Evan: Its fine. I’ll take the bus.

Perfect. That’s perfect. Oh and I’m going straight from here to class, so I won’t be home until late, so please eat something. We’ve got those Trader Joe’s dumplings in the freezer.

Evan: Maybe.

Did you write one of those letters yet? Dr. Sherman’s expecting you to have one. “Dear Evan Hansen, this is going to be a good day and here’s why.”

Evan: Yeah, no, I already finished it. I’m in the computer lab now, printing it out.

I hope it was a good day, honey.

Evan: It was… yeah, it was really great.

Oh, great. I hope it’s the beginning of a great year. I think we could both use one of those, huh? Sh!t. I have to run. Bye. I love you.

Jared: Fine, but you’re a d!ck.

Hey you. I have some very exciting news. Look what I found online today. College scholarship essay contests. Have you heard of these?

Evan: I think so.

NPR did a whole thing about it this morning. There are a million different ones you can do. A million different topics. I spent my whole lunch break looking these up. The John F. Kennedy profile in courage scholarship — three thousand dollars, college of your choice. Henry David Thoreau society, five thousand dollars…

Evan: Wow.

College is going to be so great for you honey. How many times in life do you get the chance to just… start all over again.

Evan: No, I know.

You’ve got so much, so many wonderful things ahead of you. High School isn’t always… the only people that like high school are cheerleaders and football players and those people all end up miserable anyway. Yeah, you’re going to find yourself in college. I really think so. I mean, I wish I could go with you… I just thought these were… it seemed like a neat idea.

Evan: It is. For sure.

You’ve always been a wonderful writer. And were going to need all the help we can get for college. Unless your stepmother has a trust fund for you that I don’t know about, with all those fabulous tips she made cocktail waitressing. Hey, I, um got an email from your school today. About a boy who k!lled himself? Connor Murphy? I didn't, I had no idea.

Evan: Oh. Yeah. Well… I didn’t really know him.

You know that… if you ever want to talk about anything… I realize that lately it must feel like, I’m always working or are in class…

Evan: Its fine.

Well, I’m here. And if I’m not here here, I’m a phone call away. Or text. Email. Whatever.

Evan: Thanks.

It says Connor on your…

Evan: Oh. Yeah. No.

You said you didn’t know him.

Evan: No I didn’t. This is just… its in memory. You know? People at school were… writing his name. On their lockers and…

I was so worried.

Evan: No. I’m sure.

That’s… how nice. (BEAT) Hey, you know what? How about I bag my shift next Tuesday? When’s the last time we did a taco Tuesday?

Evan: Oh. You don’t have to.

No, you’ve been back at school for a week already and I’ve barely seen you. Maybe we could even start brainstorming those essay questions together…

Evan: That would be great.

Oh. That’s exciting. I’m excited now. Something to look forward to.

Evan: Me too.

Are you okay on refills?

Evan: Yes.

Well, don’t stay up too late.

Evan: I won’t.

I love you.

Alana: I could just tell.

Who are you talking to on the computer?

Evan: Oh um. Just Jared. It was Jared.

It seems like you and Jared are spending more time together. I’ve always said he’s a great friend for you…

Evan: Yeah, really great.

I’m proud of you. Putting yourself out there.

Evan: Thanks.

Well, I’m leaving, but I left money on the table. Order anything you want, ok?

Evan: I thought we were doing tacos tonight. Looking at the essay questions.

It’s Tuesday. Oh my God. Oh honey. I completely forgot. Sh!t.

Evan: Thats okay.

You know what? You should go ahead and take a look at the questions without me. And then if you have any ideas, you can email me, and I can write back with any ideas that I have. That’s better anyway, isn’t it? That way you can really take your time?

Evan: No. Yeah. For sure.

We can do tacos another night, Evan. We could do tomorrow night. how about tomorrow night?

Evan: I can’t tomorrow. I have… I’m busy.

Sh!t. I’m late.

Evan: You should go.

No lets figure this out.

Evan: Its fine.

Evan…

Jared: That’s weird. Isn’t that weird?

What are you up to?

Evan: Nothing much.

I feel like, every time I come into your room, you shut your computer screen.

Evan: Not really.

I don’t know what you on there that you don’t want me to see.

Evan: I was doing homework, Mom.

Do you have a minute?

Evan: Well, actually, I was about to go to Jared’s.

Didn’t you go to Jared’s last night?

Evan: Well, yeah, we’re doing a Spanish project together. We’re going to be working late again, though, so I’ll probably just stay over.

I saw the strangest thing on my Instagram today.

Evan: Oh really?

There was a video from the, uh, something called the, uh, Connor Project? have you heard of that? Because their website it says that you’re the president.

Evan: Co-president.

Uh-huh. Well, this was, it was a video of you doing a speech? About that boy. Connor Murphy. How you climbed a tree together.

Evan: I just, um… I don’t, um…

You told me you didn’t know him. That boy?

Evan: I know. But.

But then in your speech, you said he was your best friend.

Evan: Well, because it wasn’t true. When I… when I said I didn’t know him.

So you broke your arm with him? At an orchard? You told me you broke your arm at work. At the park.

Evan: You didn’t even answer your phone.

You told me your boss took you to the hospital.

Evan: Well, so, I lied, ovbiously.

When were you planning on telling me any of this? Or you weren't.

Evan: When would I tell you, exactly? When are you even here?

I’m here right now.

Evan: One night a week? Most people, their parents, they try to do a little bit better than that, just so you know.

Isn’t that lucky for them.

Evan: I have to go to Jared’s.

I dont think I want you going out right now actually.

Evan: I told Jared I would be at his house 10 minutes ago.

All right, listen, I’m missing class tonight so I can be here to talk to you, Evan. I would like you to just please talk to me.

Evan: Ok. I mean, I can’t just not do work for school because you decided to miss class. I can’t just stop everything whenever you decide its convenient for you.

I don’t understand what is going on with you.

Evan: Nothing is going on with me.

You’re standing up in front of the school and giving speeches? You’re president of a group? I don’t know who that person is.

Evan: You’re making a big deal out of something that isn’t a big deal.

What is going on with you. You need to talk to me. You need to communicate with me.

Evan: Nothing is going on with me. I just did. I told you everything. I just told you that I…

I’m your mother. i’m your mother. I’m sorry I was… I don’t know why I… I’m happy. I’m happy you had a friend, sweetheart. I’m just so sorry he’s gone. I wish I had known. If you ever want to talk about it…

Evan: I should go.

You okay on refills?

Evan: I’m fine.

I’m proud of you. The speech you gave, it was… I guess those letters to yourself must have really helped, huh?

Evan: I guess so.

Well. Don’t stay up too late. It’s a school night.

Cynthia: Evan tells us you’re studying to be a lawyer

Paralegal

Larry: We’re always, my firm, we’re literally always trying to find new paralegals.

I have another year to go before I even…

Cynthia: That is a great idea. Kismet.

Oh. No You don’t have to that.

Cynthia; It;s kismet.

Well. Thank you.

Larry: Is red ok, Heidi?

Red would be great.

Larry: Cheers.

I’m so glad that you called this morning. I was, I’ve been agonizing over whether I should, if it was appropriate for me to reach out…

Cynthia: Oh, Heidi. We have, too. Evan says you’re so busy, I didn't know if I should bother you…

I’m not that busy.

Cynthia: Well, I asked Evan if you minded him spending so much time here and he said it wasn’t a problem because of your schedule. With classes and work…

He… spends so much time here?

Cynthia: Well, he and Connor, they were very close.

I have to admit, I didn’t… I really had no idea that he and Connor were even.

Larry: We’d never heard about Evan, we’d never met him.

Evan didn’t tell me anything.

Evan: Oh.

I didn’t realize that Evan was, that you were joining us, too.

Zoe: Hi, I’m Zoe. Its so nice to meet you. Finally.

Oh. Good.

Evan: I thought you had work tonight.

Well this seemed more important. So I’m playing hooky.

Cynthia: Chicken Milanese…

I didn’t realize you were spending so much time here.

Evan: You’ve been working a lot.

Why did I think you were at Jareds?

Larry: You can rest assured we take very good care of him. We’ve got — he has a toothbrush