The Glass is Always Full

Growing up, my parents always made me feel like I was an inconvenience. I never felt like I could ask for help or be confused about anything because anytime I needed help, I got yelled at. My parents always made me feel like I didn’t deserve anything good, and they still make me feel that way to this day. I genuinely think that my parents do not like me, especially my father.

My parents are extremely dismissive of my feelings, emotions, and experiences, and they make me feel stupid for just having any kind of emotional deviation from neutrality and complicity. I get yelled at for absolutely everything. My father is an asshole with absolutely nothing to offer except harsh criticisms and hurtful comments. He is the reason I seek out men who treat and make me feel like shit about myself and my abilities. I hate him.

I am trying to accept that I will never ever be good enough for my parents. Nothing I do will ever be satisfactory to them.

But I can be good enough for myself. Do I think of myself as an inconvenience? Do I think of myself as unworthy or undeserving of the things that I want for myself? If the answer is no, then that’s the first step forward. Believe in yourself because it does get better. You will find better because you deserve better. Don’t let a self-hating man with nothing to offer except his cheap criticism and empty threats get you down. You’re gonna get this money. You’re gonna get this money in incomprehensibly large amounts. So large you’re gonna think your eyes are deceiving you.

The glass is always full, even when it appears empty.