Quitting Social Media...Again

I have been doom-scrolling for a number of days this week. It’s been awful. It is not an easy thing to just stop doing once you open the app and start scrolling for even 10 minutes. It’s making me insecure about my appearance, insecure about my financial status and insecure about my future. I’ve been finding myself to be more agitated and more anxious than ever.

Being on social media frequently has made me extremely lazy and unwilling to put effort into difficult things. I’ve also been struggling with excessive boredom while simultaneously being too numbed out from scrolling to want to do anything about that boredom.

Additionally, being on social media forces you to bear witness to people who are fucking stupid at best. I don’t want to be thrust into an inherently negative and depressing worldview. I want to work on myself and progress forward; excessive content consumption is actively preventing me from doing so.

I also need to remind myself that I am not missing out on anything by not being on Instagram.

Being on Instagram for even one hour a day is far too much. The amount of anxiety-inducing content that can be consumed in that singular hour is asinine. I want to make money. I want to build my skill set. I don’t want to be bombarded by content telling me that it’s too difficult or not possible for me to make it a certain way. I don’t need someone on a fucking phone screen to verify whether or not a particular way of doing something is viable or not. I am capable of discovering that for myself. I’m quitting social media for the next six weeks. It might not seem like a reasonable goal, but I feel it necessary to completely reset my brain and get myself back to a place of regulation. I am tired of social media; I am tired of spending my life on my phone.

This battle against phone addiction will always be ongoing for as long as social media and phones continue to exist. However, that does not excuse me from not trying.