Chapter 1 - The Nature of Faith

Chapter One: The Nature of Faith

Introduction to Faith

  • Faith is not blind or deaf or dumb: Emphasizes that faith involves awareness, understanding, and expression.

Personal Experience with Faith

  • Missionary Farewell at Age 19: The author reflects on their feelings of uncertainty regarding faith and the difference between knowing and believing.

    • At this farewell, the author could only express belief in the gospel rather than knowledge.

    • Acknowledges the expectation to declare knowledge but felt it was more truthful to express belief.

Metaphor of the Potted Plant

  • The author compares their faith to a potted plant, stating they believed it would grow, illustrating a sense of hope and expectation tied to faith.

Missionary Training Center Experience

  • During missionary training, there is an instance of teaching about the apostasy.

    • A supervising returned missionary encouraged the author to declare certainty regarding church structure, specifically the number of apostles.

    • The author respectfully declined to declare knowledge on the matter, saying instead that they believed.

    • This exchange led to feelings of distress about whether their belief was sufficient for missionary work.

Reflection on Secret Testimony

  • The author recalls late-night experiences playing the pipe organ in a sacred space.

    • Feels this was a private expression of testimony, suggesting that personal faith is often private and evolving.

Connection to Richard Bushman

  • The author connects personal struggles with faith to Richard Bushman's experience at Harvard, where he faced irreligious skepticism.

    • Bushman's doubt led him to agnosticism, yet he still accepted a mission call.

    • His reflection on finding language to express faith is emphasized; he felt unable to articulate his beliefs in a secular context.

Language of Faith

  • Importance of Language: The distinction of faith becomes crucial as it’s not just about feelings but also about having the vocabulary to articulate them.

    • Bushman's effort to write in a tone that is accessible to a secular audience demonstrates the need for effective communication about faith.

  • The author parallels Bushman's struggle, expressing that their age (19) also lacked the vocabulary to discuss faith except in personal settings.

Distinguishing Elements of Faith

  • Knowing, Believing, Doubting, and Wondering: These elements are noted as significant aspects of faith and life experiences.

    • The author insists that these distinctions are not trivial but crucial to one's spiritual journey.

  • Faith and Silence: Instances of silence or speechlessness regarding faith are normal, indicating spiritual growth rather than weakness.

The Concept of Faith for Dummies

  • The author jokingly wishes for a hypothetical book titled **Faith for Dummies, indicating a desire for accessible information during periods of uncertainty in faith.

    • Signals moments of doubt do not equate to faithlessness, but rather a need for deeper understanding.

Development of Personal Faith

  • The author shares personal growth from doubt to knowledge.

    • After the mission, a friend asked what the author learned, leading to the realization of a relationship with God.

  • This relationship offers a deep sense of connection and is described as the closeness with God that builds trust.

Beyond the Dichotomies of Faith

  • The author notes that belief and doubt aren't the only opposites, and categorizing oneself as a ''Mormon conservative'' or ''Mormon liberal'' is insufficient.

    • Discusses the need for genuine communication among different perspectives within faith communities and families.

Communication Barriers in Faith

  • Acknowledges the risk of being misunderstood and the importance of honest conversations without rigid responses.

  • Advocates for bridging gaps in communication for better understanding between the youth and their leaders or parents.

Purpose of the Discussion

  • The author aims to articulate concepts leading to improved understanding and expression of faith.

    • Emphasizes offering words, stories, and ideas that help clarify the faith process towards confidence in God and His church.

  • Recognizes that unsettling moments of faith are an essential element of spiritual maturity.

Authentic Spiritual Growth

  • The author draws on Milton's perspective that true virtue can only be appreciated through opposition, rejecting the notion of a sheltered faith.

    • Faith should confront and overcome adversities, leading to genuine spiritual maturation.

Conclusion

  • Reiterates the theme: true faith is aware, engaged, and able to articulate its challenges and strengths, actively seeing and overcoming adversity in the journey of belief.