book of will lines

i thought you and ben sorted it all out?

we did. he’s not very pleasant company but he is profoundly effective at getting what he wants. so. the jaggard book is stopped, but…

what? is this not good news?

yes, but i don’t know if i can weather the constant storms to get this book done, and it looks like it the waves won’t stop coming, it’s one thing after another, and i don’t know if i can do it.

your sails are stronger than anyone’s.

i don’t need encouragement right now, i need support.

it sounds like you’re quitting. but this book is a good idea and a good deed

well it’s also impossible.

it’s not, it’s…nearly impossible.

nearly, yes, thank you, and every day it gets more so. and i fear after all the work and the time away from you and the children and the theatre and the church, after all that time we will have nothing to show for it, i will have nothing to show for it.

john-

failing them is worse than losing them.

well you cant help losing your friends, but you can and must try to honor them

i am not young

you’re also not dead

but everyone who should be doing this work instead of me already is.

you gave up what you loved once, i wont let you do it again.

i’ve already put my life into this theatre, i dont know if i can put the rest into a book.

dad. we need to talk about this

not now ali